inconvenient conveniences

so you might be wondering what is she talking about well here is the definition by Webster of the following:

convenient
Main Entry:
con·ve·nient
Pronunciation:
\kən-ˈvēn-yənt\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
Middle English, from Latin convenient-, conveniens, from present participle of convenire to assemble, come together, be suitable, from com- + venire to come — more at come
Date:
14th century
1obsolete : suitable proper2 a: suited to personal comfort or to easy performance b: suited to a particular situation c: affording accommodation or advantage 3: being near at hand : close
— con·ve·nient·ly adverb

inconvenient
Main Entry:
in·con·ve·nient
Pronunciation:
\ˌin-kən-ˈvē-nyənt\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
Middle English, incongruous, harmful, from Anglo-French, from Latin inconvenient-, inconveniens, from in- + convenient-, conveniens convenient
Date:
1651
: not convenient especially in giving trouble or annoyance : inopportune
— in·con·ve·nient·ly adverb

So the combination is when something occurs that that hinders the outcome you are projecting and hoping for, but that something while postponed helps you to get to where you need to be and in the perfect time. It does not always feel great but in the end you are very satisfied if not blown away by the timing and by what actually occurs and then those things that never come into play.

what can i say but the last 6 plus week have been full of inconvenient conveniences. today was like the cherry on top. so my dad is having some health scares ... alot of which is unknown until after the biopsy is taken and the results return. the timing of this yet again is an inconvenient convenience. this has made me look at a few things

a. the fact that i will be leaving to go and be with family which puts me out of reach to a situation i was hoping to be in arms length of.

***(BEING WITH MY FAMILY IS NOT AN INCONVIENCE TO ME JUST AT ONE POINT IN TIME IT SEEMED TO BE AS I WAS LEAVING WHAT I THOUGHT WAS MORE IMPORTANT AND I WAS BEING SELFISH ... (this all turns out to be a convience though).)***

b. i realized that the situation i hoped to be in arms length of is not a situation that i need to be in the vicinity of for now anyways.

c. both these situations have brought me to face the fact that i come from a line of really strong women who are outside the box thinkers and lovers ... yes i said lovers.... i also come from a home, childhood and adulthood where i have been surrounded by and loved by really strong men and the situation that i want to be in reach of but due to an inconvenience (the geographic possibility of this especially for the weekend) puts this as yet another convenience. this convenience will give me time to reflect on the clarity that i had random flashes of today.

d. this also puts me smack dab in the presence of those strong men that have loved me so well and i believe after the convenient inconvenience that i have allowed myself to be absorbed by will be put into perspective.

if you can make sense of this your IQ is definitely above average and i would go as far to say you would be great at the word problems that go something like...."if two trains leave the same station at the same time but train a.... and train b.... what time will they arrive at t......

so all this to say i am learning that conveniences are sometimes VERY inconvenient and inconveniences are some times well ... just BIG BLESSINGS!